well i finally have time for a proper post. working at sentosa is fun. friends are like family. and i made it clear to myself to not fall or make anyone fall for me. no matter how painful it is/was to resist it. love comes, sometimes it goes as well. it's not me fearing them to leave me. that would have been the right choice anyway. i just don't wanna hurt any soul any more. for those haters of mine reading this. i'm sorry for my past actions against you. i truly am. put that aside, yesterday was my last day of work for 2009. gonna get myself a school to settle down in before working again. hope i get into ite. seriously need to get my brain cells working again. hmm, yesterday sentosa had a x'mas party. i was working so i only got to enjoy parts of it. the toast and the food. didn't have time to talk to the rest. i didn't quite have the mood actually. i felt left out in fact. i just stared blankly at those i missed. went back to work, slacked at imbiah ticketing since i was lazy enough to do anything. 9.45 went up to help out with the time check radio check. last train came, i went up but didn't board the same cabin as the others. wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. went to change in punch out my card. went straight to the office then straight home. today for my last day, no jokes. no lameness. no me. i was acting like someone else. i couldn't even share a proper laughter. i know i sound so emotional about everything. maybe i am. i just miss someone to hold on to in life.
never mind. no regrets dude.
never mind. no regrets dude.
well, there was a part when i smiled widely. was approaching bus 188 when she called out my name and complained to me again. sometimes i wished i could have told her how cute she is with that smile of hers. or how i wished i could get to know her better or so. short moments last a lifetime (:
ciggy out ~~!
